so close

to the end.
excited to have my car again. and to breathe again.
also excited for another SF trip with cleo so we can walk, just walk, like what she does in Cambridge, in the summer sun, get me some seafood, and find a beautiful, peaceful place. maybe i'll bring my drum. yes, i'll bring my drum. and a blanket, oh and socks! because last time it was a little chilly and i was forced to by socks from REI. but it's totes not even a bad thing cus i funking heart that store to pieces. typing out this blog makes me feel like im in wanket's english class again, journaling every morning about whatever and not worrying about grammar or punctuation. i like hot tea and people of Truth.

Fantasy to Reality

i think i came up with a new plan. it's really exciting and also makes my tummy turn. but naturally i am content.
it might be better for me, my parents, my relationships, and my goals. i think this dream needs to come true. the worst part about this blog is that i can't say what the plan is just in case it doesn't end happily :)

prayerssssss! and fingers crossed!

Current Anthem

"makes me wanna go shove my intelligence in the administrations' face" -cleo

love.

Lupe Fiasco - Sucker Free - MTV Shows

Uncharted

Tonight it hit me. It really hit me... so hard that I can picture myself in 2014 not receiving a single acceptance and literally feeling my heart ache. But I can take two things away from this. The first is that these emotions are signs that this is what I want to do; this is my goal. I want to go to med school. The second is similar to the first, this isn't a dream anymore, it has finally sunk in that it's my reality! HA! I feel great! And at the same time it feels gross and makes me sick. I'm not a kid anymore. I'm also not an adult. I don't have my life figured out and the next four years will certainly be a shit show. Damn.

I need a Plan B. Not some Plan B as noted on the sticky note from Betherly, but a serious plan for what comes next if I don't go on to med school right after graduation. I also need someone to tell me that I don't need to make that plan until closer to when the time comes. I want some real time lovin', someone to call me up and say "baby, you're a firework"

Something else I decided tonight: I HATE being a gemini, and yet, i love it :) [who didn't see that one coming?]

Thanks to cskewis for feelin' ma payne. Probs time to relax and sleep. Easter Sunday! weee!! choose your chocolate wisely, FAIR TRADE!

hang loose

Today's Brain

I have a fat list of what I want.

Today will be the day I think about that list and figure out what I need.

Summer Love

Almost time to peace out on everything and everyone and leave the country for a month.


Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...

Today's Brain?

It's quite hysterical when someone sends a text or an email making a statement but ends the sentence with a question mark indicating their thought is continuing even though its a statement. here's an example from a recent email to fill you in on the following inside joke: "I can help with fliers as well if you need? And I can make a big sign for the commons or something as well?"

i laughed for days.

- today has been nice and relaxed
- i bought a drum
- my parents don't know yet
- brittany ate my salsa, but im okay with that?
- i hate tomatoes, but i love salsa?
- i'm sad that i only have 11 actual days of classes.
- brittany just farted on my drum.
- i love meeting new people?
- pineapple brutally burns Bev's mouth
- i sometimes enjoy a quick alliteration?
- i should probably cut my toe nails?
- brittany should probably shave her armpits?
- we need to be careful how we advertise for our slavery still exists event. we can't run around saying, "a filmmaker's perspective! come experience human trafficking!" :D
- chloe doesn't have coarse-ish hair
- britt thinks coarse-ish hair is gross.
- britt says her mom has coarse-ish hair...

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