I would also like to say...

that I leave the country for 3 weeks tomorrow. i don't want to say bye to my grandma...


today i started planning for my birfdaayyy with cleo. I'm excited for it. Mainly for the funny pictures and late night conversations and love Love LOVE!! :)

hmm...i'm going to go get froyo with my craziest cuz. and maybe hit up a drug deal. we'll find out!

I would just like to say...

i'm content with never seeing you again.

Now that that is off my chest, back to watching House!
winning

meepmeep

this is me procrastinating on studying for finals and thinking about how this is my second to last night in this room on this floor and that this week is my last trip to Powell's for four months... sad times..and how long of a run-on sentence this could really be.

so close

to the end.
excited to have my car again. and to breathe again.
also excited for another SF trip with cleo so we can walk, just walk, like what she does in Cambridge, in the summer sun, get me some seafood, and find a beautiful, peaceful place. maybe i'll bring my drum. yes, i'll bring my drum. and a blanket, oh and socks! because last time it was a little chilly and i was forced to by socks from REI. but it's totes not even a bad thing cus i funking heart that store to pieces. typing out this blog makes me feel like im in wanket's english class again, journaling every morning about whatever and not worrying about grammar or punctuation. i like hot tea and people of Truth.

Fantasy to Reality

i think i came up with a new plan. it's really exciting and also makes my tummy turn. but naturally i am content.
it might be better for me, my parents, my relationships, and my goals. i think this dream needs to come true. the worst part about this blog is that i can't say what the plan is just in case it doesn't end happily :)

prayerssssss! and fingers crossed!

Current Anthem

"makes me wanna go shove my intelligence in the administrations' face" -cleo

love.

Lupe Fiasco - Sucker Free - MTV Shows

Uncharted

Tonight it hit me. It really hit me... so hard that I can picture myself in 2014 not receiving a single acceptance and literally feeling my heart ache. But I can take two things away from this. The first is that these emotions are signs that this is what I want to do; this is my goal. I want to go to med school. The second is similar to the first, this isn't a dream anymore, it has finally sunk in that it's my reality! HA! I feel great! And at the same time it feels gross and makes me sick. I'm not a kid anymore. I'm also not an adult. I don't have my life figured out and the next four years will certainly be a shit show. Damn.

I need a Plan B. Not some Plan B as noted on the sticky note from Betherly, but a serious plan for what comes next if I don't go on to med school right after graduation. I also need someone to tell me that I don't need to make that plan until closer to when the time comes. I want some real time lovin', someone to call me up and say "baby, you're a firework"

Something else I decided tonight: I HATE being a gemini, and yet, i love it :) [who didn't see that one coming?]

Thanks to cskewis for feelin' ma payne. Probs time to relax and sleep. Easter Sunday! weee!! choose your chocolate wisely, FAIR TRADE!

hang loose